Jan 23, 2014 My journey to empty nesting!
It’s 2014 graduation year and Reality has landed on my door step. Our daily conversations have moved from what college do you want to go to…to where have you applied? From omg I can’t wait for prom to OMG PROM is in 3 months! The excitement but yet the pain. See I took the non-traditional route, a teenage mother first. At 18 a freshmen in college my life quickly changed. I went from living the college life to living a life for me and my babygirl. Despite 2 short marriages, it’s been just the 2 of us. My everyday was centered around her and her busy schedule. We had a mutual calendar to make sure I could keep up. Everyday we talk about her day, she calls me when something exciting happens and even when she’s had the worst day ever. She says mom I just need to hear your voice, you always make it better.
Now she’s 18 and graduation is in 4 months. I sit here wondering what happens when she leaves? She’s my little assistant, she’s my best friend, she’s my prayer partner, she’s my ride or die chic. I didn’t think it would be this hard for me, as a matter of fact I’m super excited for her and the life experiences she’s about have. She’s about to live on campus, meet new friends, go to parties, travel… dorm life was the funniest days of my life. So I cant wait for her to experience that…but…Will she call me everyday to tell me how much fun she had or will she get so caught up in her life that she forgets about Mommy? What will those new friends look like, what kind of upbringing are they from? O my as the tears roll down my face, I didn’t think this would happen so fast…Now what?
May 31, 2015
I ran across this entry today, I can’t believe it’s been a year since graduation. I talked to a friend that said she’s very